To transform the inner fears and doubts that keep people trapped in anxiety, so they can live the life they have always dreamed about, feeling limitless, confident and joyful.
At the core of our being is the most sublime part of ourselves, our soul who opens our mind to our limitless self which is filled with love, compassion and caring which we can feel in every moment setting us free us from all unnatural fears to experience a life filled with joy and abundance in all things.
What I Do
I work with your feelings and emotions creating a bridge between your mind, your body and your feelings in a way so changes are easily assimilated into your daily life. You will become aware of a deepening connection with yourself as all the unhappy parts come together creating a sense of wholeness, joy and contentment.
I first suffered anxiety when I was 12 years old and real deep sadness and loneliness. I woke up one morning in a panic feeling as if a lightning bolt had been driven into my chest.
I had spent all my time, up to then hanging with my brothers as we moved around a lot. The oldest two now had serious girlfriends and my younger brother Nick who I developed a deep loving relationship with, was off to a different school than me. I suddenly felt abandoned and extremely lonely. This plagued me for 7 years. I did a lot of soul searching, asking, reading, researching Jung, Buddishm, life after death to find answers. Wasn’t sure what I was looking for exactly until at 19, I’m in a pub with friends in deep discussion about life and relationships when I suddenly shouted at the top of my voice. “I got it’ “I understand”. the pub full of people just stared at me thinking I was bonkers or drunk maybe. In that moment everything made sense and I felt so safe and so joyful, whole and complete.
Two weeks later , in 1972 Nick got killed in a car accident.
I fell apart. I felt as if my soul had been ripped out of me, like I had lost half of myself. Six months hiding at home, not going out, meditating, praying, reading to find answers to his death did not take away the intense pain. And what I had found a few weeks prior to his death now seemed lost to me. And I was starting all over again but this time from a place of feeling totally in pieces. I studied mediumship, spiritual healing and psychometry. I sat in a spiritual development circle for many years. I contemplated suicide. I went in to panic wondering how I could cope with going a lifetime without seeing Nick or holding him in my arms. The loss of a loved one has got to be the most excruciatingly painful and despairing experience.
But in all of this I did slowly come back to find myself and I discovered the deep inner strength who I called god, was in fact my soul; the centre of my complete being. So I set about learning the road map between the soul, the mind and the body. Over many years developing my healing gifts, more study and training, I experienced incredible spiritual insights and had amazing spiritual experiences that were mind blowing and which confirmed what I had always trusted and believed in. This beautiful loving being resided in each one of us could heal our pain and reconnect us to our core identity, our true nature of a divine being.
But not content with 3 dark periods of my life, yes there was another. I married, unknowingly, an alcoholic and left him after 4 years when I was 8 months pregnant.
I had contemplated suicide when Nick died, and during the emotional turmoil of my first marriage and again in 1998 when I suffered a nervous breakdown. I had got caught up in a very negative corporate environment which for me was utterly destructive affecting me so badly I had a breakdown. This time I experienced my life falling apart in yet another way. I could see that I was dismantling my self, in order to find my true self and not allow negativity to destroy me. There were times when in deep despair I could feel my cells dying and telling me to stop this slow death and find my way out. As always I meditated as best I could between dark foreboding thoughts and almost manic highs and I did a hell of a lot of healing with my soul. Eventually I found my way home once again.
The breakdown was the best thing to happen to me because I realised I didn’t need to experience anymore emotional pain of this nature. I had learnt what I needed to learn, at that time ( there is always learning) about the inter-connection of the emotions and the soul and how emotional pain creates a disconnection from our soul. And depending on the severity the disconnect can be small like scattered fragments or extreme where it feels as if we have departed from our body, and we are ‘hanging on’ by a thread, walking alone in the dark, lost forever. I obviously wanted to learn what these extremes felt like in order to better help others.
Panic attacks were nightly occurrences that had me fighting for my life. But I got there and found my way out of the maze. Only to realise that I had been putting off starting my healing business for too long and regardless of what happened that is what I was intent on doing. I didn’t care about the security of a 6 figure salary. Up to this point all the healing work I had done, I did for love. I knew I had to heal others , not in parallel to my career as I had been doing but instead of it. I learnt to see myself during the panic attacks from another place and the road map which was quickly filling up with new information. I couldn’t put it off any longer and I came up with my Soul Integration system and I started my healing business helping people with relationship issues and with depression and anxiety.
In reflection my initial leaning was a truly emotional one (anxiety), rejection, abandonment and loss of a loved one and feeling utterly alone and lost (depression and suicidal thoughts). This was followed by relationships; my first marriage and then experiencing life as a single parent.
Then meeting my soul mate a few years later; learning a whole new level of interpersonal connection whilst maintaining my personal independence and unique identity. Another round of depression through negativity, a constant shock to the senses and breaking free without fear of the consequences and claiming what I came here to do, but in a much different way.
All this taught me that the most important thing to remain focussed on without distraction is ourself. The relationship we have with ourself is the most precious of all, and when that’s healthy, life is healthy, our relationships are healthy and so is our mind and our reality.